Ok, I know I have not written on here for a while. Dont know who else to speak to, my world is a little upside down at the moment.
A few weeks ago Rick stepped over the flirting bowndaries with someone infront of me, after flirting rather prevocatively he went up to her and kissed her on the lips. A few weeks later I noticed him nuzzling from behind her in the shop.
A few days later he tells me he isnt ready for marriage and doesnt want to marry me!!
What am I thinking??? I feel fat, and unloved, I dont know if he is doing the same to me as he was his ex partner. Maybe I just feel so insecure with myself, you see, this girl is young and has a great figure.
Why am I saying this all now, because he told me he was working late, I have tried calling him at the shop, no reply and his mobile, no reply, I have also text him, no reply.
Am I just reading into this because I feel so low about myself, my self esteem completely non existant at present, or am I being Nieve? I do so love him, and I am still in love with him, I thought I trusted him, but things over the last month have been a little bit of a roller coaster ride and I dont know whether I am coming or going.
The stupid thing is, I expect I would have him back even if he did have an afair. Oh god, I wish someone could give me the answers.
Monday, 22 October 2007
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
